“Behold, Lord, an empty vessel that needs to be filled. My Lord, fill it.
I am weak in the faith; strengthen me.
I am cold in love; warm me and make me fervent, that my love may go out to my neighbor.
I do not have a strong and firm faith; at times I doubt and am unable to trust you altogether. O Lord, help me. Strengthen my faith and trust in you.
In you I have sealed the treasure of all I have.
I am poor; you are rich and came to be merciful to the poor.
I am a sinner; you are upright.
With me, there is an abundance of sin; in you is the fullness of righteousness.
Therefore I will will remain with you, of whom I can receive, but to whom I may not give.
There is great humility in this prayer from a man, who despite his faults, was a giant in the Christian faith. We need to pray like this. To confess our sin before God, to admit before God our brokenness to state our desire before God to remain close to him. To remind ourselves we cannot do anything to earn the love or the mercy and forgiveness of God. He has through his grace given to us all we need, what we have to do is acknowledge that need and bow before him.
David in Psalm 51 write: the sacrifice you want is a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart.
That brokenness isn’t a punishment it’s not because God is vindictive or unkind, it is because when we admit our brokenness then he can begin his work of healing and restoring, or transforming and molding us into the people he knows we can be. The greater our humility, the more acute our sense of sin, the more available we make ourselves to God and his work.
It is because of his great love for you that he died for you. He loves you and wants the best for you.